Monday, October 02, 2006

Place in this world

On his album "God West Young Man," Michael W. Smitth recorded a song called "Place in This world." Here are the lyrics:

Verse 1
The wind is moving / but I am standing sitll / A life of pages / waiting to be filled / A heart that's hopeful / a head that's full of dreams / But this becoming / is harder than it seems / Feels like I'm...
Looking for a reason / roaming through the night to find my place in this world / My place in this world / Not a lot to lean on / I need Your light to help me find my place in this world / My place in this world
Verse 2
If there are millions / down on their knees / Among the many / can you still hear me? / Hear me asking / "Where do I belong?" / Is there a vision / that I can call my own / Show me / I'm... [repeat chorus 2x]

Whenever I used to hear that song, it would stir within me an acute angst, a desire to figure out what I'm made to do with my life. But now, I don't feel that anymore. Not now, anyway.

Today I started my new job. I'm working for a Web site that ministers to college students. It's called I'm the Assistant Editor. I'll be writing and editing content for the site, as well as figuring out how to promote the site on a shoestring budget.

The way that everything transpired to get me to this place is really amazing. I didn't even want to apply for the job, honestly. But my new co-worker, Denise, and my new director (both of whom interviewed me for the job) came to ME and asked ME to apply. I decided to apply, just to humor them. But even though I thought it would be incredibly too stressful, God completely changed my heart. And He got me the job.

The point I'm trying to make is that I feel so incredibly blessed. I knew, even prior to getting this job, that God had given me the ability to write. And now I'm very excited to get to employ that gift.

I don't know my place, exactly, just yet. But I feel like I know where I'm going. And I really like where I am right now.



Manda said...

Blessings and congratulations. I'm still waiting for that moment when I'm employed and know that there is no where else God would seem to want me (I feel like that all the time with the kids at church, but that really doesn't pay the bills). I wonder if it would be Colorado??? Congratulations. I can't wait to hear "the rest of the story" :)
Love, manda

The Bearded said...

I can't believe you deleted my comment!!! Did you recieve it? Hope so...

Best wishes with the new job!

R John said...

It thrills and blesses our hearts to know that you are content and at peace with where you are in your place in this world! I have had that feeling about two things in my life; marrying your mother and teaching. I am sooo proud of you, son!! May God bless you as you serve Him. Love, Dad

melissa said...

matthew! i was thinking of you and emailed and then checked your blog and OH my goodness! so exciting! i am praying for you during this time of transition...your place will always be in the arms of our Heavenly you remain in Him, may He grant you the peace to know that you're exactly where He has you.